dear diary,
sometimes i feel like everything is falling apart but most of the time i just feel nothing. i can't even help but smile though even when i want to break everything or disappear or scream. this stupid look is just plastered on my face all the damn time. i guess my brother was right about my face sticking like this.

does anyone else really want to go swimming in a pool full of pudding or is it just me?

i feel fine,
zach